When Life Gets Heavy

This isn’t going to be a sweet blog post filled with pretty photos. {Well, other than this one of coffee because we all could use a little extra coffee right now.} These are just some of my thoughts that I felt the need to get out.

It’s been a weird few weeks, but not really for us. More like us-adjacent. It seems like 90% of our circle is dealing with hard and heavy things with family, jobs, health, life in general.

We all have seasons in life like this, but it’s odd that this many people are having it at the same time. I just posted on Instagram about how fall has always been my season to hit reset, and I feel like they’re all getting to reset and redirect this fall whether they were wanting to or not due to the circumstances around them.

My life for the last few years was a weird season. I was in a town that Jesus clearly wanted me in at the time, but I didn’t enjoy it. I was away from my family and friends, and I had had to start over and rebuild in a town where the only person that I really knew was my husband. I was in a weird place with my career and tried a million wrong options before I found a job that I loved and ultimately had to leave. We thought that maybe it was time to have kids because we were “supposed to”, but we really weren’t sure that’s what we wanted at the time. We both experienced the loss of family members back to back to back. I just felt like I was floundering 99.9% of the time. 

On this side of it, I know that there was a purpose for that season. There was a purpose for the struggle and the tears and panic attacks. John and I had to learn to depend on and support each other more than we would have if life was “good” the whole time. If nothing else, it made me much more appreciative of every good thing that happens now. But when I was in the trenches of it, I didn’t care about the purpose. It just sucked. A lot.

So if you’re in a hard, heavy, sucky season, I get it. I understand. I’ve been there. And I don’t say that in a cute, cliche way. I mean that I’ve been there crying on the floor of the closet begging God to change my situation. I struggled through it. It wasn’t easy or graceful, and I didn’t handle it super well. I struggled. But in the middle of the struggle, God was doing things in me that I wouldn’t have been receptive to if life was easy. 

I know that it’s not fun to hear all of this in seasons of struggle, loss, frustration, whatever. But eventually, it does get better. Life changes, and you will be up better because of it. But until it’s better, here are a few verses that I read on a regular basis to help me push through:

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.
Joshua 1:9

The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.
Exodus 14:14

Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.
Isaiah 43:1-2

Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.
Deuteronomy 31:6

If you are going through a hard season, know that others have walked this road before you and are more than willing to encourage you through it. If you need someone to share with, cry to, whatever, please message me. I would love to be able to encourage you and pray for you!

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